Cannot believe it's ONLY been 2 months since I found this picture on craigslist... Totally fell in love. What a perfect 8 weeks we have had!!

For some reason I can so clearly remember being twelve or so, and dreaming of how wonderful it would be to just sleep next to a boy that I loved (I must have been listening to beach boys- wouldn't it be nice, or something) and mean that in the most innocent of ways too. Just going to sleep and waking up (in this day dream there was no bed head or morning breath) and rolling over to see a face I love.... Too bad I didn't marry someone who is as wonderful of a sleeping companion as my preteen self thought I would.
Serious conversation the other night:

"You were so fucking loud last night I'm not sure I ever fell asleep"- me (in a very angry, if-you-don't-let-me-sleep-I-might-kill-you voice)
"Hey, I've slept with myself every night for the last 23 and a half years, and never once have I woken myself up"- Eric

So last night I drag myself into bed, and I'm about to fall asleep when my bed starts to feel like a ship out at sea. Because Eric likes to put his foot on the footboard and rock, rocking the whole bed. After about an hour, and a bit of sea sickness, I hear him taking a deep breath and blowing out, perhaps he was blowing up balloons in his dreams?
And 99% of nights he sleep talks
Like the other night he was clearly dreaming he was at a football game, waking me up to tell me what the next play of the game would be
And then usually twitches, shakes or fake runs in his sleep
Not to mention our puppy who sleeps in a kennel on the other side of me has nightmares and cries all night, or snores,  and then at like 4 wants to sleep in bed with us.
I can't remember the last time I got a good night sleep.

now i have never been able to decide where i stand on the whole "premarital cohabitation" thought... statistics have proven that if you live together before you get married, your future rate of divorce goes through the roof.  but seriously, what did i get myself into??

i may or may not be bipolar. i mean medically i am not, but im getting a bit worried. there are a few things that i just have NO IDEA what i want. so after spending all yesterday afternoon crying my eyes out on the couch cuz i was homesick, and spending all night pumped because my husband "surprised me" with drinks and appetizers. i have come to the idea that i am the most decicive indecive person i know... like look at that i cant even decide if i can decide or not.

for example i made two short lists of things

things easy to decide:

move to africa

get married

picking a home

get a dog

things hard to decide

"puppy play with me"---"noo puppy go away"

"im going to the gym to get fit"---"nahh these chips are looking delicous"

im not sure where i was going with this post-- new thought

tonight we are doing BENIHANA night. making homemade sushi, shrimp sauce (hopefully), shrimp, and crab cakes! boooya!

so i told ya'll i might upload recipes, so here is my ALL TIME FAVORITE recipe (i stole it from another blog, but altered the recipe to be way better- but the super cool thing about this recipe is, you can just throw what ever you have together, and alter it to your taste) 

mexican lasagna

Here is what you need: Makes about 6-8 servings.

- 12-14 tortillas (I used small tortillas, they fit better)

- 2 cups of shredded Mexican blend cheese

- 1 tbsp of fajita seasoning- or taco seasoning

- 28oz can of tomatoes

- 15.5 oz can of black beans ( i use 2 cans cuz im a vegitarian and i love beans)

- 15.5 oz can corn (or frozen, or fresh if you are real crazy)

- 2 cups of salsa 

- 2 cups of shredded chicken (or beef or no meat)

- 1 small onion, chopped

 -cottage cheese (as much as you like) 

1. Spray crockpot with cooking spray. Lay down layer of tortillas. Each crockpot will vary in size. Mine took 4 small tortillas to cover the bottom.

Next, spread a layer of tomatoes.

2. Sprinkle some chopped onions & black beans on top of the tomatoes.

3. Cover beans with a layer of salsa & apply a generous amount of fajita seasoning.

4. Next layer on your chicken & corn. (pictured with vegetarian fake chicken)

5. Top corn with a layer of shredded cheese and cottage cheese.

Like I said, all crockpots are different shapes and sizes. So keep layering until you are a couple inches from the top. I was able to repeat the layers 3 times.

When you do reach the top, for the final layer, do a later of tortillas, topped with the rest of your tomatoes and cheese. 

6. Cook on low for 3-4 hours or on high for 2 hours. Top with sour cream of avocado 

boom shock-a-lock-a you just made the best meal ever!!!!! eric and i are obsessed with it, i make it like at least once a week. 

so I'm back at it. maybe.  The only reason I even am thinking about it is because I've been asked, even so much as begged to start writing again. so I'll attempt to start this up. although my life's excitement levels have really decreased since stepping foot back in america.
you know, its been pretty normal in my life since then. just a move across the country, getting married, a few small vacations, getting a puppy and that wonderful adventure i like to call "finding a career". nothing too exciting.
anyways i have no idea what im going to write about in this thing. also remember that i dont spell check, or think about what i write, i dont worry about sentence structure or any of that junk. if you dont like it, dont read it.
as i was just on facebook right now i thought of my first rant to talk about

i HATE when people are so proud to be an "army wife"... and yes i am one, but that is not something i would wear on my sweatshirt, or on a bumper sticker. dont get me wrong im very very proud of my husband, and believe everyone should be.  but what if he was a butcher? a baker? a candle stick maker?? you dont see their wives wearing matchy shirts that say "candle stick makers wife"  and you for sure never see #bakerswife but these army wives, they think they are a club or something.  there is a very real chance that any two marriages have about as much in common as mustard and ketchup, both awesome and delicious, yet not the same .  also what happens when he is no longer in the army?? will you still be a proud army wife? i mean 4 years ends quickly (or 8 or 20 or however long he is in)  i can nearly guerentee if you are married till you are say 80?? you will have spend more of your relationship out of the military that you did in it. i just think its a bit pathetic if your biggest accomplishment is marrying a man with a job.
      so shush it ladies, the rest of the world thinks your annoying.

also i was thinking at one point i would make a cooking blog, but im not THAT good at cooking (i actually am working on dinner a minute ago, and it asked me to "trim the chicken" and i dont know what that means so i just cut the edges off??)  so anyways be prepared to see lots of recipes and such, probably random thoughts that enter my head, DIY projects that i totally mess up, and probably a photo or two of my rediculously cute puppy!

thats all - enjoy

p.s if you have any ideas of what i could write about id probably write about it